Take a trip somewhere I mean what do you have to lose, on your journey to wherever you may see life worth living make yourself do something. Dont believe anyone who tells you differently. West's parents are asking anyone who may have been. Leads continue to come in, her parents said. Learn how your comment data is processed. I tried by drinking mosquito poison. But as long as your solution is to kill yourself , you wont see them even if theyre right in front of you. Your Privacy Choices (Opt Out of Sale/Targeted Ads). I often think that if we are going to make up what we tell ourselves about our future, we might at least make it good. He says he fully expected to speak with her the next day and became very worried when she didnt return multiple calls from him. West, 20, grew up in Pleasanton, Calif. She was a star volleyball player at Foothill High School and loved singing at open mic nights. You provide inspiration to others who still are stuck in that hopelessness and despair. We talked a lot about loving each other. Has left me pretty much bankrupt and not willing to live. I wish you all the very best and I pray you each find a way to manage and control the thoughts of suicide. Maybe in order to evade authorities who had refused permission to allow the jump legally 18 months earlier, he removed the weighted boots that were intended to keep him upright during the plunge. Saving Lives at the Golden Gate Bridge. I think it could be helpful to you. Horrified spectators screamed and mothers covered their childrens eyes as Chief Sundowns lifeless body bobbed under the bridge and out to sea. Case Contact Information: SFPD at 415-575-444 or text TIP411 (Start your message with SFPD) Or contact: private investigator Scott Dudek at 925-705-8328 or dudek.associates@gmail.com, *there is a reward for information that leads to her location and return, For more info: https://findsydneywest.com/ Facebook: Find Sydney West Instagram @find_sydney_west Polly Klaas Foundation: https://www.pollyklaas.org/missing-children/sydney-west/, Sources: https://pleasantonweekly.com/news/2021/09/30/what-a-week-find-sydney-west https://www.kron4.com/news/bay-area/searching-for-sydney-san-francisco-police-still-asking-for-publics-help/?fbclid=IwAR2uVE3anCjr5EvpUerTiD6JZxCAENR83-xIRz3TRzAfRuGckyYFzRqnobM https://storiesoftheunsolved.com/2020/11/27/the-disappearance-of-sydney-west/. It was in 1984. You can find a life worth living, too, if you set your mind to finding solutions. . West was born in Walnut Creek and lived briefly in Castro Valley before her family moved to Pleasanton. And I got very drunk every time I drank after that, which was quite often. She replied, She probably figured she could fix you. This was the beginning of my recognition of the fact that I wasnt the horrible person I made myself out to be, in fact, my story is very much like a lot of alcoholics Ive met. It amazes me that the vast majority of suicides are by men, and virtually all of the articles about it are by women. Six months after student's disappearance in San Francisco - SFGATE East Bay Wine & Whimsy (Metaphysical Market), Before & After Photos Show CA's Snowpack, Reservoirs After Storms, Best Bay Area Sandwiches + Stranded Hiker Rescued: Saturday Smiles, Sprawling Estates, Suburban Dreams: 11 Featured Bay Area Homes, Berkeley Police Warn Of Vehicle Theft Rise, The Poop On Free-Range Cats And Your Lawn And Garden [Block Talk]. She is an amazing musician. Michael Horan at 415-553-1028 or the family's private investigator at 925-705-8328. I had my suicidal thoughts since I was a child I lost my mum when I was 9 years old she took her own life and even now after my attempt I still dont know how to feel about what happened to her and what I have done to my self but I know I will have to find a way to live with the impact of my attempt and hopefully find a way to some sort of happiness, Please seek help, therapy to work through your trauma, it must be so hard to have lost your mum in this way and your nine year old self could only feel abandoned, not enough to have stopped her. For his big ticket to stardom, Rhodes was inspired by a circus performer named Frank Cushing who was plucked out of the bay the previous year after claiming that he had just leaped from the bridge, though no one was there to see it. Ken Baldwin. I died that day too. I wanted to distance myself from it as much as I could so that people would leave me alone. Pandora After graduating high school in 2019, she decided to take a gap year in Australia. Edit: FAQs https://findsydneywest.com/faq, https://www.pollyklaas.org/missing-children/sydney-west/, https://pleasantonweekly.com/news/2021/09/30/what-a-week-find-sydney-west, https://www.kron4.com/news/bay-area/searching-for-sydney-san-francisco-police-still-asking-for-publics-help/?fbclid=IwAR2uVE3anCjr5EvpUerTiD6JZxCAENR83-xIRz3TRzAfRuGckyYFzRqnobM, https://storiesoftheunsolved.com/2020/11/27/the-disappearance-of-sydney-west/. At 10 o'clock in the morning, Ken. Sure if youve got someone/s to bail you out after your attempt, yeah youve got a reason to live. Footage in the area, according to a website the family recently set up in light of her disappearance, was blocked by fog and morning haze. Obviously, I failed. $10K Reward Offered In Search For UC Berkeley Freshman Sydney West She attempted suicide three times and was in mental hospitals, etc. The instant regret of jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge did not result in instant mental health recovery once Hines survived. It gives me a good opportunity to dispel concerns that others may have, too. Her family launched a website,findsydneywest.com, that they hope will remind the community Sydney is still missing. Obviously, the will to live does not reassert itself in everyone who has tried to die. I was driving toward the Hoover Dam bypass bridge from Memphis over 4 years ago to jump off. He had lost two fingers in a knife fight on the set of the movie "Scarface." 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Even for people who passionately wish and perhaps even need (for health reasons) to lose weight, they do not always prevail. Thanks for sharing your story here. For more information, click here. Part of Audacy. For those who are thinking about suicide, I know what happens after youre gone isnt part of the thought process, but believe me, you might end your pain, but the trajectory of pain caused to others is also insurmountable. People are stupid. Had she jumped somebody definitely would have noticed, and it would've been caught on CCTV (the cameras are placed on light poles so fog does not block). Why Prevent Suicide? That changes things. But the other day I told him that and now hes moving in with me again so my life is going good again! I am not sure anybody really wants to die but I know many people, including myself, who are just sick and tired of living and want it to be over. Trackback URL 2023 CBS Broadcasting Inc. All Rights Reserved. Yes I know this fear of failure as well. I hope you can find peace within. After my attempt at suicide, I tried to find information about my feelings and what others were feeling. The man who tried to find fame by jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge, Horoscope for Saturday, 3/04/23 by Christopher Renstrom, Snowboarder dies at Tahoe ski resort following historic blizzard, West I-80 closed near Tahoe due to snow and 'multiple spinouts', Wife of Jeffrey Vandergrift issues somber update, Even Salesforces tower HQ isnt safe from office cuts, Inside Harry and Meghans favorite In-N-Out, Horoscope for Friday, 3/03/23 by Christopher Renstrom, Massive Lake Tahoe waterfront compound slashes price by $20M, This beloved East Bay hybrid cafe and bike shop is closing, Ja Morant says he'll get help after video shows apparent gun. I wish everyone could receive this gift, and I am grateful that you and others have done so! West may have been wearing dark leggings, blue Vans shoes and a teal sweatshirt at the time of her disappearance. This is perhaps the best argument for preventing suicide. It certainly sounds like your friends antidepressants are not working. If prior research is any indication, the barrier will save lives, even when taking into account people who go elsewhere to die by suicide. Search within r/redsox. "Jump." That's the word Kevin Hines heard in his head on September 25, 2000, as he stood on the Golden Gate Bridge. Especially when its an opinion so your both right. I wonder what psychotherapy he has tried. Throughout the years, Ive engaged in self-injurious behaviors. The sad thing is that, as I say in my letter, some of what your friend thinks and believes may actually be true, but his mind is probably also shutting him out of other truths that could balance out his pain. Im here. The articles abstract states: Following the interventions, there was an 86% reduction in jumping suicides per year at the sites in question (95% CI 79% to 91%). Between 1937 and 2012, an estimated 1,400 bodies were recovered of people who had jumped from the Golden Gate Bridge, located in the San Francisco Bay Area in the United States. Theyre asking anyone "who may have been walking, biking, running, who commute over the bridge particularly Wednesday mornings at that time" to share information if they might have seen West or anything that can help locate the missing teen. Wests parents said they have now hired a private investigator who is working with the San Francisco Police Department and Orange County (North Carolina) Sheriffs Department. Sydney West was last seen near the Golden Gate Bridge in the early morning hours of Sept. 30, walking near Crissy Field. Perfectly so. I still think about suicide, although not as often. After the war, people were looking for entertainment in 1940's San Francisco, but TVs were not yet common in homes, public hangings were history and the 49ers hadnt joined the NFL yet. I love the analogy with weight loss. In 2013, 118 potential jumpers were talked down from their attempts and did not jump. I blame myself 100% for her suicide. I use to hate her for wanting to leave me, got diagnosed w depression at 15 have done so many therapy sessions. We remain hopeful that someone knows something that will be helpful in finding her.. I find myself returning to that time in my life and wondering if this is the way Im supposed to go, or if the survival instinct will continue to win. My sons father committed suicide and in the moments he was alive after shooting himself he kept saying sorry I shouldnt have never done this over and over. . You might think that, once freed from the authority figures who prevented their suicide on the bridge, they still went on to by suicide.